before the show, I sat down with my son to get some feedback 
on how to move forward with my work

the first thing he said 
was that he just doesn't understand how 
I can live with all of this restriction
"why don't you want anything?"

I realize it is true, but not true

I never noticed it, 
but I have lost my capacity to want

in the end, it is simply that for the past five years
I have only wanted one thing

a cup of coffee

what are material desires compared to something so simple
 a moment in time

in a space 
safe
free
just to see
to speak
 to be with

just a cup of coffee

so simple
it is unobtainable

a want so big
that because of it
there is nothing I want

I want for nothing