Automediality is a key component of my artistic practice.

Automediality is a form of autobiography through media,

in real time, shaped by the media outlets utilized

this journal is one of my media outlets

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photo by John Ferris Robben

other things that are crystal clear

I love you

and

I miss you

ok, maybe I would change one thing

I would love more

every day, full of love and hope

determination

and a knowing that it is all worth it

looking back

I can see that I had no concept

of what was to come

but even if I did know

I would do it all again

isolation is the gift

all others are a test of endurance

I know on the outside,

it appears that I have nothing

but in the fullness of my heart

lies the universe

what I have seen from this experience

is that I am an eternally hopeful spirit

loving and good, patient and kind
I can see I have become 

who I have always wanted to be

in so many ways

mostly in my heart

this past weekend

I began to clean out my laptop

I have had it since 2011

I have been ignoring

"Your disk is almost full"

for a while now

It turns out that most of my space

has been taken up by photos

48,900 to be exact

So I have been reliving my life

through transferring these photos

to an external hard drive

 

October 2015

Every artist should be on Instagram

Stefan Simchowitz

at ALAC, 30 Jan 2015

your true essence glows from within

can't wait to see everyone again

my Sunday mornings

curled up with my lion

even when only in my heart

I was allowed to feel

open to love

is like absorbing the warmth of the sun

 hold back?

so I can be on my deathbed with regrets?

no thanks

standing in line at FedEx

and the woman's phone

in front of me just announced

"Love is the only way"

(was not planning to be here at this time)

true for me

hello

sleep well

Jessica by TJ Manou

for Vogue Italia

Makeup by Lusine Galadjian

Styled by Me

there are a lot of renditions of this song

but for me there is only one

I had to overcome

a lot of self-hatred

and agony over things I had done

to be able to love myself
I found self forgiveness 

it took my lifetime

to be able to love myself

it was worth every

unloved moment

I love myself

as I want others

to love me

and I find myself to be

very lovable 

I love others

as I want to be loved.
Their true selves
and

as they are. 

my definition of hell

is to be

in a relationship

loveless

I do not wish to be alone

but more than that

I do not wish to be with another

without love

I chose love

and 

every day

I 

choose love

the stakes are higher

in love

there is much to be lost or gained

it is not a matter of perspective

it is a choice

my soul is hitched to a harp 

made of the rays of diamonds,

and when I hear the rich tones of your voice,

the harp starts its music

overwhelming me

another day in paradise

Robbie and me

The Louis Vuitton Travel Book Route 66

event in Santa Monica

#LVRoute66

interview by Christina Campodonico

on my upcoming installation

at the Venice Art Crawl

HIS

I feel that my body

is healing 

I am still very careful

about what I eat,

but I no longer feel as anxious as I have

every day I do my ballet,

I feel stronger and stronger

I feel happy 

my body feels happy

I sleep better

and overall

I feel so much healthier

for me,

styling is not about labels 

give me a garbage bag,

I will give you

an editorial

Asternal (2013/4)

this piece is a collaboration with Li Huang that we did

at SCAD.  Li enameled the metal mesh heart that I formed,

and I added it to a previous piece I had made (the ribcage)

I miss my SCAD family

I love you

there is more pain

in withholding love

than there is in a broken heart

the heart wants

what the heart wants

you cannot control

love

let it flow

in, through and out from you

and give it to those

you love

photographed by Wayne Maser for Esquire Magazine

need one of these tartan jumpsuits

from the Garage Italia Ferrari Racing Team

worn by Lapo Elkann 

heart

would that you could

enfold

me

in your arms

hold my hand

show me

the way

whatever you 

see whatever

you say

will I do

so I can let

go

of all that I 

do 

to hold 

me

from all the love

I am to give

why must I feel 

so vulnerable 

after I express myself

to someone,

even if it is just reaching out

to say hello?

it's a beautiful day

the birds are happy

I am happy too

I looooooove bees

these made me so happy this morning

love these final edits of Krystall

by Jesse Dvorak

styled by me

Photo by Mido Lee of Mido Lee Productions

The Alchemist

performance piece

at The Startup Art Fair San Francisco

Saturday 28 April 2018

photo by Amruta Patil

The Broken Heart Repair Shop,

at the Venice Art Crawl,

Thursday, 17 May 2018

at Sunny Bak Studio

2214 Pacific Avenue, Venice

6pm

here is the video of my performance piece

The Alchemist

at the Startup Art Fair, San Francisco

(thank you to Robert for making sure 

I have documentation of my piece

and to Robbie for saving the video from deletion!)

words are art to me

I was so happy on my trip-it was so good for me to get away

I bought this handbag on a visit to SF

back in 2005

my friend brought me to the shop

April in Paris

owned by Beatrice Amblard

She trained and worked at Hermès

before moving to the US and starting her own brand

I loved the idea of being able to order a 

one-of-a-kind bag made by an artisan 

of her talents and training

Coincidentally, during my visit

Beatrice was celebrating 

her 20th anniversary in business.

I was thrilled to be able to attend the event

Her studio is still on Clement St

but in a larger spot,

now with a school!

would love to go!

Bea's logo is the bee

I have one on my bag

 

we went up to Sebastopol

to visit my friend's antique ranch

so peaceful

I can't wait to visit again

no one was as happy as I 

to see a bathtub again

not to mention a 6 foot tub!

I actually floated
😄

tell Matthew I sent you

an artist's hand deserves diamonds

Harry Winston and Monica Seggos

my first adventure in SF

was going downtown

with my friend to visit her favorite shops

our first stop was Harry Winston

This branch is their first in SF

We were welcomed with a red carpet

by Matthew

and encouraged to try on our favorite pieces.

When I tried on this beautiful watch,

Matthew said to do what I would do if

he wasn't there.

I said I would take selfies if you weren't here!
😂😂😂

he said, "go ahead!!"

so I did!!