Automediality is a key component of my artistic practice.
Automediality is a form of autobiography through media,
in real time, shaped by the media outlets utilized
this journal is one of my media outlets

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This shoot with my girl Melissa was a double take.
Two different points of view of one concept
by two different photographers,
Monica Henriquez and Antonio Espino.
These shots of Melissa are from Antonio's perspective
she knew all along
and loves you beyond measure
Barret illustration
Jean Cocteau
a rose brought Beauty
to The Beast
through her love
he was transformed
In mythology, rose meaning is associated with Aphrodite 
(Greek) goddess of love who was often depicted 
 adorned with roses around her head, feet and or neck. 
In lore, we track down this association 
when we discover that a rose bush grew within the pool of blood 
spilled from Aphrodite's slain lover (Adonis). 
We can interpret the symbolism here several ways. 
The most common interpretation is that the rose  
 symbolizes an immortal love 
or a union that will never fade - even through time or death. 
As a plant of Venus, Rose is a classic aphrodisiac.  
Rose is an opener - it opens the heart and body to sensual experience. 
Like many aphrodisiacs, Rose has nervine and nourishing qualities 
which help to relax and soothe the body 
so that it may become ready and desirous of intimacy.
 Venusian magick, though, reveals desire on more than the physical level. 
It reveals the desire to engage mystery 
where there has only been the acknowledgement of the mundane...
Rose reconnects to wildness, fierceness, and determined desire.
 To dream and want and feel and growl and move and connect with each other. 
One thing that I have seen again and again 
that is particularly powerful about Rose,
 is its ability connects us back to the secret excitement of mystery. 
what a beautiful day
(I hope I never get tired of saying that)
I just can't express it in any other way

if I had to,
I would say
it feels like being with you
Happy to announce that I will be 
part of the Special Projects 
for the Startup Art Fair in San Francisco
with my performance piece
"The Alchemist"
being held at 
Hotel Del Sol
27-29 April 2018
...The heart is the seat 
of your intuition...
Marilyn Jenett
Feel Free to Prosper
Heart's Afire (my heart burns for you) Handcarved and cast in bronze, cast wolve's teeth
working on updating my jewelry page
decided to post this on my journal too!
nights in LA
you smell divine
my style
on a walk with you
so happy to be with you
my one true love
I love you
endlessly
it wouldn't be Valentine's Day
without Snoopy
Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!
coup de foudre
Salvador Dalí, “Gradiva” (1931), oil on copper, 20.6 x 15.5 cm

via Hyperallergic (all images courtesy Sotheby's):
James Mackie, Sotheby’s Senior Director and Head of the Department of 
Impressionist and Modern Art, told Hyperallergic in a phone interview that 
the paintings are “particularly distinguished,” 
in that they were created right after Dalí met poet Paul Éluard and his wife, Gala,
who would leave her husband for the mustachioed Spaniard soon thereafter.
“Gradiva” (1931) portrays the titular character of Wilhelm Jensen’s 1903 novel, 
a story about an archeologist who falls in love with a Roman bas-relief of a woman...
for Dalí, Gradiva represented a real person, namely Gala. 
(He even called her Gradiva as a nickname.)
étude pour Gradiva, 1931. Pen and ink, colored crayon, and pencil on paper, 20 x 15 cm
“Maison pour érotomane” (ca 1932) shows a Catalan landscape, 
with rocks morphing into a horse, cello, and car...
According to Sotheby’s Aleksandra Todorovic, 
the transmogrified figures are a direct allusion 
to the couple in Jean-François Millet “L’Angélus” (1857–59), 
a painting Dalí used as a reference for many of his own works: 
“By transforming the Catalan rocks into anthropomorphic 
and sexually charged images, 
the artist eroticizes the landscape 
that witnessed his first delirious encounters with Gala.”
Salvador Dalí, “Maison pour érotomane” (ca 1932), oil on panel, 14 x 18 cm
Absolutely breathtaking 
to me
 an incredibly vibrant
expression of love and sexual attraction
so in love with these works
I would buy them all
-
I would have to buy them all
they belong together
-
in awe
-
I know these feelings intimately
they were there from the beginning
they are there now
Thierry Mugler, Vogue Italia
doing what I have to do
to get things done
What do Instagram personalities do? They take selfies
No matter what happens behind the scenes, you have to show up.
Sunday morning of the Startup Art Fair I woke up with a swollen face. 
I have Lyme disease and Lone Star tick disease. 
Lone Star tick disease causes my face, hands, and legs to swell 
when there is an excess of histamine in my system. 
I never know when I will suffer an attack, nor where on my body it will show up. 
Facial swelling, particularly of the lips is extremely unsightly, even frightening to look at. 
Especially when it is me looking at myself. 
An excess of histamine can be caused by eating certain foods
 and exacerbated by exhaustion and/or stress. 

Sunday morning the swelling was on the right side of my face. 
I had already taken some antihistamines late Saturday night 
(luckily for me there was a 24 hour Walgreens down the street from The Kinney) 
The dose was not enough to stop the swelling from coming back. 

There was no way I was NOT going to open my doors for the show that day, 
and I made the decision to show up no matter what. 

Here is my selfie at about 11:30 (doors opened at noon). 
I tried my best to hide the swelling, but if you look closely you can see it. 

Right after this shot, the swelling started moving to my lips. 
I was really discouraged about opening the doors and having to show myself like this. 
My friend Beverley, who came all the way from SF to see my show, 
told me to call her doctor husband to see if there was anything he could do. 
I did, and he told me to take a second dose of the antihistamine 
because it would work and would not harm me. 
So I did and sure enough, the swelling went down 
and by 2pm I was back to normal, though extremely tired from the medicine. 

I had a wonderful time with all the visitors, 
and I wouldn't have wanted to miss it for anything. 

That's what happens behind the scenes of an Instagram personality.
The show must go on
Thierry Mugler s/s 1992 rtw modeled by Niki Taylor
current mood
how many selfie's 
does it take
to get one?

my heart 
enables me to let go
and allow

my heart resides
in my brain
my heart resolves
everything
that my brain
would prefer
to ruminate over,
analyze,
micromanage

I have learned to
ignore all outer circumstances
and people
trust myself completely
knowing myself
and what I am capable of accomplishing
all of my dreams will come true

Red Gerard's first two scores
third and final run, gold medal score
Hope this makes you as happy
as it makes me
(this was Red Gerard's gold medal run,
but unfortunately,
it was deleted by
the Olympic committee-
so glad I got a chance to see it)
now up,
NBC's official video
I love you too
we make magic
you & I
I love walking 
on Sunday mornings in LA
it is so peaceful and quiet
except for the birds
welcoming the warmth of the sun
their songs resonating
in my heart
I am here
you
that's you
behind the scenes with model Yuliia
and photographer Kayla Alise


late night
early morning
puffy eyes
overcast skies
humidity
self-portrait
it was a busy morning this morning
in downtown la flower district
new ring
leather and copper
 I am very happy
trying on a dress to send to a customer
blurry, but I like it
it's hard work
taking a selfie with an iPad
work
So I hadn't imagined broadly enough the isolation 
I would find myself in after writing this book. 
Nor had I envisaged the consequences which it would have 
for subsequent writing and even for my private life - 
violent threats have not ceased to this date. 
A woman who defended the arch-enemy - 
who didn't equate domestic life with solitary confinement 
and who described the company of young children as a pleasure, 
not a burden - 
necessarily had to become a "misogynist", 
even a "reactionary" and "fascist" in the eyes of the public. 
Esther Vilar, August 1998, on her book,
when the erotic and the tender
 are mixed in a woman, 
they form a powerful bond
Anaïs Nin
photo by Mido Lee Productions
I can't help loving these pictures of me
looking so happy
Thank you Mido Lee
OMG
it is so beautiful out today
bts with model Maya
photographer TJ Manou
shoe designer Annie Mummaw
styled by me