Automediality is a key component of my artistic practice.
Automediality is a form of autobiography through media,
in real time, shaped by the media outlets utilized
this journal is one of my media outlets

please see the Automediality & Me page for more information

thank you for following along with me on my journey
follow me
I thought I had lost you
when in reality
you have been with me
all along
you are here
in the secret garden
with me
in all of your
radiant beauty
profound magnificence
Love, as opposed to sensuality or sexuality, 
is a quiet and contemplative energy. 
This energy, originating in our spiritual heart,
flows through our physical heart and radiates outward. 
It is the most compelling energy there is,
both to the sender and to the recipients. 
It is an uplifting, calming, reassuring vibration,
that eases even those who have been most traumatized. 
Sonia Choquette
All art is a strike for freedom, is an expression of liberty...
what you are looking at is somebody just making this move
in a completely new territory and asserting themselves in a new way...
that kind of newness...that kind of assertion of the self and of the newness of the Self...
that in itself is just an exhilerating and inspiring thing
that carries over into all forms of life...all forms of activity.
Roberta Smith, NYT
on In Other Words by Charlotte Burns
Ooh la la, I see stars. I'm seeing stars

Oh my starry eyed surprise, sundown to sunrise
I dance all night, we're gonna dance all night, dance all night to this DJ
Ah Sugar, dance all night to this DJ
Oh my starry eyed surprise, sundown to sunrise
Dance all night, we're gonna dance all night, dance all night to this DJ
Ah Sugar, dance all night to this DJ, dance all night to this DJ
Lover dance all night to this DJ

  1. 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻
loved loved loved
hearing this song again
went to St Helena for the evening
I had a wonderful time
I am with you
tears pouring down my face
my heart on my sleeve
revealing how much I love you
how happy I am to see you again
unbounded unconditional love for you
 immeasureable intense joy
immersed in the beauty of you
your powerful energy glows
your heart is at peace
knowing you are loved
and understood
dark and warm
filled with
whispering trees
slivers of heat
waft and wend
on the water
from me
offering nourishment
for the heart, body
soul, intellect

fingers entwined in your mane

I am here
emotionally, spiritually, physically
I know how important beauty is to you
here, immersed,
you would feel sated
you would love this place
the sun 
went down on
 the wine
in the distance
the warm water
and frothed
against my skin
the cooling air
the tendrils
of my hair
in my Secret Garden
are fragrant roses "Mignon"
apple trees, olive trees
lavender, black figs and green figs
peach and nectarine trees
tomatoes, cucumbers and corn
table grapes draped everywhere
grasses and bees
hummingbirds and asian pear trees
roses, roses, roses

if I didnt know where I was,
I would guess that I am in Provence
🐛🐝🕷🐢🐞🐰🐮🐷🐸🐄 🐖🐏
and last but not least

current mood!!!!!

3 weeks
I can't wait until tomorrow

the secret garden

Kunsthistorisches Museum Wien Curator Jasper Shapr talks about the new exhibition   

Wes Anderson & Juman Malouf - Spitzmaus Mummy in a Coffin and Other Treasures

I am here to share my bliss 
and my joy with you
I hope you feel it
installation art
on the way home
  1. Love is the real power. It’s the energy that cherishes. The more you work with that energy, the more you will see how people respond naturally to it, and the more you will want to use it. It brings out your creativity, and helps everyone around you flower."  Marion Woodman
chastity = fidelity
my god
it's an absolutely 
breathtaking day
the birds
the blossoms
the breeze
inhaling the bliss
the secret garden
To Do List Saturday16 July 2018
nourish the bliss
two more days
it's turned into a craving
Garden of Elie Nadelman 1948 (Leslie Gill)
plus intimes
so inspiring
Picasso's from the LA Times building
love these!!

love her
In all of my dimensional work I use the third dimension to intensify the two-dimensional experience. It becomes part of a vivid two-dimensional image. The third dimension, while actually existing, is only an illusion in terms of the painting, which remains by intent in a painting and not a sculptural context.
—Slim Stealingworth (a pseudonym for Tom Wesselmann)
BOB ADELMAN (1930-2016) Tom Wesselmann with laser-cut “Steel Drawing / Monica Lying” in his studio at 231 Bowery photograph 1988
Wesselman and Me 😂😂😂😂😂
really enjoyed the Tom Wesselmann exhibition at Gagosian
particularly the Standing Still Lifes,
"shaped canvas paintings in which objects are arranged in space as tableaux... 
These still lifes comprise multiple canvases shaped like the objects they depict and mounted on both wall and ground."

Genius depth perspective
I am crazy about them
They have opened my imagination to a different type of installation
I love the studies that accompany the works
They are just as inspiring

Helen Frankenthaler at UTA
inspired by her stain painting technique on untreated canvas
want to try it out
lying on my back on the floor of my studio
absorbing the warmth and light of the day
No. 14/300  11/12 July 2018
I know there is so much that is "bad" and "wrong"
about this painting,
but I finally felt like I was playing yesterday and today
my professor Nell Keyes taught me that at SCAD
that it is about playing around with the material
without worrying about or trying to control the end result
I am really not trying as hard as I could be 
to get the shades of color that exist
I am having too much fun applying the paint
and moving the paint around!!

have a fucking brilliant day!
they don't just serve coffee in coffee shops
this looks like a great place
nice view!
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 Selfie Inspiration

Inspiration:  Automatons
waves from Hurricane Chris
Narragansett Beach
Marie Saba food pun
I cannot espresso...
Lee Miller by Man Ray 1930
Liron Gertsman

17 years old

To Do To Be I Am List - 11 July 2018
1.  Romancing experience with a spontaneous and unbridled enthusiasm
2.  Engaging the whole of me and unleashing my creative expression
3.  Surrendering to passion and intensifying the depths of my emotions
4.  Engulfing my being in the fires of my heart, allowing the flames to sear my soul
5.  Embodying my joy and donning its luminescence
6.  Living the beauty,  immersed in the transfiguration of perception
7.  Loving with illimitable unconditionality

so happy
so happy to be with you
so happy to BE,
with you
so happy to be
with you
so happy to be with
so happy
the best feeling in the world
is loving someone,
being there for them,
knowing that they need your love

so filled
with love and joy

overflowing with love
overflowing with joy
following my heart
following my dreams
are acts of devotion
riiiiiight now
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yesterday's amazing team
you can feel the synergy
it was like a ballet in my studio
Teal Druda, MUAH
Michael Anaya, Lighting
Olga, Model
Legend, photographer
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ALL of us, so happy with our work

I had such a great time with yesterday's shoot
as creative director, set designer, stylist, and bts photographer
So proud of my work
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bts from yesterday's shoot
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mural, Russia1910
I have the original sticker
this one is offering the bitcoin option now
love activist
nope, nobody else
it is only yes
the happiest sound

Over the Town - Chagall

the color is so beautiful you can feel it in your heart
good morning world!
have a happy day!
my bloodmingleswiththenightair
To Do List - 6 July 2018
1.  Romance experience with a spontaneous and unbridled enthusiasm
2.  Engage the whole of me and unleash my creative expression
3.  Surrender to passion and intensify the depths of my emotions
4.  Engulf my being in the fires of my heart, allowing the flames to sear my soul
5.  Embody my joy and don its luminescence
6.  Enter into the beauty and become immersed in the transfiguration of perception
7.  Love with illimitable unconditionality

nope, I don't get distracted by bullshit
I look forward
to being in nature 
to being overwhelmed by its beauty
a little over a week!
let your beauty shine
everlasting beauty
the purest beauty
The Hero With a Thousand Faces
Joseph Campbell
(The Hero's Journey)

"...(the call of adventure is to) a forest, a kingdom underground, beneath the waves, or above the sky, a secret island, lofty mountaintop, or profound dream state; but it is always a place of strangely fluid and polymorphous beings, unimaginable torments, super human deeds, and impossible delight...
Refusal of the summons converts the adventure into its negative. Walled in boredom, hard work, or 'culture,' the subject loses the power of significant affirmative action and becomes a victim to be saved. His flowering world becomes a wasteland of dry stones and his life feels meaningless—even though...he may through titanic effort succeed in building an empire or renown. Whatever house he builds, it will be a house of death: a labyrinth of cyclopean walls to hide from him his minotaur. All he can do is create new problems for himself and await the gradual approach of his disintegration...
For those who have not refused the call, 
the first encounter of the hero journey is with a protective figure...who provides the adventurer with amulets against the dragon forces he is about to pass. What such a figure represents is the benign, protecting power of destiny...a reassurance—promise that the peace of Paradise... is not to be lost; that it supports the present and stands in the future as well as in the past...that though omnipotence may seem to be endangered by the threshold passages and life awakenings, protective power is always and ever present within or just behind the unfamiliar features of the world. 
One has only to know and trust, and the ageless guardians will appear. 
Having responded to his own call, and continuing to follow courageously as the consequences unfold, the hero finds all the forces of the unconscious at his side. Mother Nature herself supports the mighty task. And in so far as the hero's act coincides with that for which his society is ready, he seems to ride on the great rhythm of the historical process."

since I was a little girl
I have always 
made wishes on fireworks
they remind me of 
making wishes 
on dandelion weeds
I hope you are making wishes tonight
like I am right now
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 Danique and Magdalena by Legend
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